My Story
I am a 28 yr old survivor and victim of Childhood Sexual Abuse.
I use both terms because I believe that, yes, we survive, but are always victims in that the scars we bear never go away.
The "man" who abused me has been abusing girls for his whole life, probably. I do know for a fact that he has been abusing women in my family for about 30 years. 30 years ago, this man married into my family, marrying my Grandmother. As soon as he began dating her, he started molesting my family members and others.
When I was about 4 years old, he began molesting me. This man is evil - and his "sickness" and "demons" have spread through my family like a disease. The symptoms being silence, doubt, and ignorance. My own grandmother is someone I have labeled a "co-abuser" for she has "given" us girls to this man. She was present, in the same bed, as this man molested me so many, many times. When another family member asked for help and first revealed her abuse, she was told to shut up and told that it was dealt with, which of course it was not. I see this as being more evil, more sick, because this is a person without the "pedophilia illness." She had a choice all these years, but chose to stick with a man who abuses her children, grandchildren and their friends.
I have spent most of my life in therapy and have been diagnosed with a dissociative disorder. In 2001, this man was caught, yet again molesting a young girl in my
family. I became highly involved, and thanks in large part to a previous abuse case (mine, from the 1980's, in which he only was given a 6 month sentence) this man was sentenced to more than 8 years at San Quentin.
But nothing ever happened to my Grandmother.
Nothing.
And I just dont get that - it doesn't make sense to me. She was a teacher for several decades and was skilled in identifying abuse and responsible for reporting it due to her profession yet there was no action against her, ever.
I strive to change this unfair and unjust double standard for the sake of other children.
There is enough ignorance and apathy in the world, we CAN NOT afford to show abused children that it is acceptable to not do anything, nor let those who blatantly co-abuse our children to remain free and unpunished.
