I Know, But . . .

by Terri

i know i am meant

to walk through this life alone,

though surrounded by others

in a virtual ocean of entities,

but it still hurts

i know this separation is

just an illusion,

contrived by the god within me

for my own amusement,

but i’m not amused

i know there is no cause

for anxiety, that in this

dream of life there is

no thing without reason,

but i still agonize

i know immersion in this now/here

is floundering, drowning in a sea of doom;

that i should float, skipping merrily

across the waves of existence,

but i’m still going down for the last time

   

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