Betty    9/4/2002   Beloved Husband And My Best Friend My wonderful husband, Junior,was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer on July 14,2001, just 10 months after we got married. He was in stage 4. They gave him a "few" months. He took Chemo once a week, every week. It "zapped" his strength and energy. He lost weight and his appetite. I had to take him to the Emergency Room at least once a week or once every other week because he couldn't "control" his pain. I never did understand this statement coming from his oncoligist. If he could have "controled" his pain he would not have been hurting all the time! Most of the times they would admit him and up his miligrams of heavy pain medicines. When he got past a "few" months,around Christmas 2001, he started feeling better and gaining weight and eating again. He really thought the Lord had healed him because that is what we prayed for all the time. We were optimistic. He was a little better for 2 or 3 months. Then he started going downhill again. He had to have blood transfusions. He lost weight again and his appetite. He was in and out of the Hospital several times. Every time he was admitted to the Hospital, I stayed with him holding his hand and telling him how much I LOVED him. Only going home to get some clean clothes, etc. I took showers in his room just so I could be near him if he needed me. And I "napped" in those hospital chairs at his bedside, because you sure couldn't go to sleep in one of those chairs. I took care of Junior more than the nurses did, because I LOVED him and I wanted to. Then on May 9, 2002 after umpteen CT scans, since the beginning, his oncoligist told us there wasn't anything else that could be done for Junior, because the Cancer had spread from his pancreas to his liver to his lungs. He took him off of Chemo. Then he sent us to a Cancer Clinic on June 11,2002. By that time it was too late. The doctors out there said that Junior was in the process of dying and that he wouldn't last long. So they sent him to the Palliative Care Unit. Where he held on for 11 days,fighting all the way. He kept telling me that he didn't want to leave me alone and that he didn't want me to be by myself. I believe he knew everything right up until the time he passed away although he couldn't carry on a conversation the last 3 days, because of the heavy IV medicine he was on. Everywhere we went and even setting at home we were always holding hands. We even held hands while we were sleeping. So around 7:45 A.M. on Saturay June 22 2002, God's best angel came to take Junior home and I was holding his hand. He waited until I was asleep to pass away. I was exhausted. I was only napping for about 1/2 hour when he passed away. Something suddenly woke me up and he was already gone. He was only 56 years old. He had went from 270 lbs.to 150lbs. We always told one another several times a day how much we LOVED each other. I miss him so much, but I am glad that he is not suffering anymore. I am also glad that we had our 2 years and 9 months together. Junior showed me a LOVE that I have never known before. I know God put us together so I could take care of Junior because HE knew nobody else would. I took care of him at home with no help from no one, although he never was bedfast. He always insisted that he take care of me and he did. The day he went into the hospital for the last time , he insisted that he put my shoes and socks on for me. He always took very good care of me. Where he was concerned, I always came first. Junior just tried to make everybody happy. If he saw somebody that wasn't happy he would say or do something to make them smile.He was a very good hearted man, whom I LOVE dearly. Our 2nd Wedding Anniversary will be on September 30. Junior's birthday is November 26. I know God had better plans for Junior. Take care of him God until I get there. Then me and Junior will take care of one another. And we will be walking hand in hand up in heaven just like we did here on earth. I miss you "BABY". I'll be with you soon. With all my LOVE from : Betty

valleybarb   4/22/2005   Beloved Mom My wonderful,talented mother Susan Padell 5/7/29-9/27/2001. An artist, writer, inspirationalist, human being extraordinaire, that was my mom.  Lucky for us, she left behind her wonderful paintings, prolific and sensitive poetry and prose. Her home that still exists is a shrine to her talents and love.  I hope someday to have her book of poetry published for all the world to see and enjoy.  Her insight into life, and death, was prophetic and dazzling, her love of nature and life was inspiring.  I wish I could print some of her poems here for all of you to share. Beloved mother to Lynn and Barbara, wife to Jerry, sister to Matthew Proser, and grandmother to Amanda and Glenn Greenberg. The sun never sets on Sue's Life,it just rises and falls. We will see you again someday, my wonderful mom, till then, adieu.

Jade_Eyed_Angel01   1/13/2005   My Angel Caroline (Mom) Caroline..Born October 17th,1938 Date of Diagnosis: October19th,2000 She became an Angel: February 20th,2002 Age:63 years young She was a single Mom who raised 2 children on her own,and worked at Concordia University in Montreal Her Hobbies:Shopping(clothes and shoes of course ),Painting oil on canvas (famous for her palm trees,sunsets and beach scenes!),Reading every Danielle Steele book she could get her hands on,Dancing(Boy could she move!) Her favorite time of year:  The fall, up North in the mountains when the leaves were changing to beautiful hues of red and orange Her Favorite Holiday: Christmas.Mom had decorative ceramic houses that she used to put up that would light up,every year she bought one and added it to the collection.She would set them up in the wall unit..it looked like a shrine,complete with little people,bridges,trains,horses,fake snow.It was her pride and joy! Her Lifelong Dream:To become one of the Rockettes or a Broadway Dancer Her Witty Personal Answer to Bodily Gas Functions: "Oh well,wherever you may be,let your wind go free"<giggle> Her words of wisdom:Things happen for a reason,we can't always question it,and may never get the answers to our questions,but there's a higher power that knows why..trust it.

DHARVILLE3   2/17/2008   MY BELOVED HUSBAND , MY BEST FRIEND MY  ANGEL WAS  MY HUSBAND & MY BEST FRIEND !  WE WERE INSEPERABLE , TOGETHER WE COULD HANDLE ANYTHING & EVERYTHING ! , UNTIL THIS TERRIBLE CANCER TOOK HIM AWAY FROM ME. I LOVED HIM WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL.  NOW HE'S MY ANGEL IN HEAVEN , I KNOW HE KEEPS WATCH OVER ME . HE WILL BE THERE WAITING FOR ME WHEN I TAKE MY TRIP TO HEAVEN, THEN WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN, AND IN THE HEAVENS WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER.  I KNOW HE IS AT PEACE NOW .  AND I ALSO KNOW  GOD TAKES ONLY THE BEST. LYLE WAS THE KINDEST , GENTLE, SENSITIVE , FUNNY , LOVING MAN  I HAVE EVER KNOWN. HE LOVED HIS CHILDREN, & GRANDCHILDREN. HE WAS A GREAT HUSBAND , DAD ,GRANDPARENT TO ALL OF US!!.   WE  ALL MISS HIM , AND WILL LOVE HIM ALWAYS. I WILL CHERISH THE MEMORIES  WE MADE TOGETHER IN OUR LIVES.  I SEE SO MUCH OF HIM  IN THE FAMILY WE RAISED TOGETHER.  IN THEM I STILL HAVE A PART OF HIM HERE WITH ME DAILY. BABY YOU ARE  TRUELY MISSED ! AND I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS, ! YOU WERE A BLESSING TO ME  & EVERYONE WHO KNEW YOU ! HIS [OUR] BATTLE BEGAN IN JUNE 2005 HE BECAME MY ANGEL ON FEBUARY 23rd. 2007

Bev-Mgr   1/17/2005   My Beloved Husband It has taken me a year to come here to talk about the loss of my husband, my heart, my best friend in the world.  I only had Phil in my life for three short years, two of which, we battled pancreatic cancer.  Shortly after we began dating he complained of "something not being right with his body".  Doctors diagnosed everything under the sun except pancreatic cancer and when they finally DID decide it was cancer, he was already in Stage 4 so there was little hope of beating it.  Of course, we were devastated when we heard the "C" word, but my Phil was so brave and fought so hard to have lived as long as he did.  We accepted his illness and did everything in our power to extend his life and give him quality time at the same time.  We married, even though everyone in his family thought that was a bad move on our part, and we had seven and one half months of sheer happiness, despite pancreatic cancer.  Our love for one another was truly a gift from God,....a gift you only get once in your lifetime.  I have no regrets and if I had it all to do over again, I wouldn't change a thing.  I believe with all my heart that he lived as long as he did because he had a very strong will to do so and I also believe that the love we shared had a lot to do with it.  Phil was the type of person who gave a piece of himself to everyone he touched.  When he was younger, he worked with mentally challenged children.  When I met him, he was just the kindest, sweetest man you'd ever want to meet.......if someone was stopped on the side of the road needing help, Phil was always the guy to come to their rescue.  If one of his single female neighbors needed something fixed in their home, he was there.......that was just his nature.  He never complained about anything and if he did get mad at you, he'd speak his mind and then the anger was gone.  Never held a grudge and was always up front with you.  I always knew exacly where I stood with him, and you can't ask for more than that.  The happiness he brought into my life was something I had waited for my whole life.  I felt "complete" when he and I were together.  I never had to "want" for anything because he provided me with love, passion, friendship, compassion, security, concern, and anything else I ever needed in my life.  I have a huge hole in my heart since he has passed, but at the same time I know he is helping me through each and every day.  The lessons I learned about life from Phil are the most valuable lessons I have ever learned and I hope to pass those lessons on to my children and grandchildren (if I ever have any) when they are old enough to understand.  Phil, wherever you are, please know that you are and always will be MY HERO.  You fought a valiant fight and I thank God you were brought into my life.  I love you today and always and you live in my heart forever and ever.  When my time comes to leave this earth, I KNOW you will be there to help me cross over and that is something that takes the fear out of dying for me.  Until we meet again.......................I LOVE YOU! Bev