"If I had known you’d be gone,
I’d have watched you longer…
Listened more intently…
Kept my eyes from shutting
So I would miss you less.
These things make up my regret,...
That I lack the memory of keeping you…"
"its as eerie as an unfinished game of solitaire with a winning deal" dec 19, 2005
"my shadow on your face will be the mask for your agony"—to omen January 8, 2005
"If I had known you’d be gone,
I’d have watched you longer…
Listened more intently…
Kept my eyes from shutting
So I would miss you less.
These things make up my regret,...
That I lack the memory of keeping you…" jan 21, 2005 3:54
"This is the plan..
I’ll be more busy,..
I’ll better myself,..
and I’ll pretend that you were bad for me.
I’ll say I can do better
and find another who could be greater
than that honest love..
I’ll be happier.
I’ll be new..
I’ll be freed from you.
I’ll look ahead,
but start tomorrow."
