Oh Father
Oh Father I have not forsaken thee
I remember your warm embrace
the kind and gentle heart
and the ever patient ear
You lend me strength, protect my soul
you have guided me all these years
through you I have found that which nourishes
Oh Father I have not forsaken thee
for you have taught me well
you have sent me forth on a journey
a discovery of self and of Mother
a journey uncommon in it's winding path
I rejoice in the enlightenment
finding comfort in her arms
and love in her gentle whispers
a joy that seemed so complete before
now made whole with the learning
gifts she bestows upon her child
Oh Father I have not forsaken thee
I see thy wisdom in releasing my hand
thy faith in my ability to grow independent
your confidence in me your child
to return grown and ready
stronger for the experience
I embrace you my Father along with Mother
in love and acceptance together we are one
Oh Father I have not forsaken thee
I have ever been the faithful daughter
listening and heeding that which you teach
taking with maturity the charge you have given
learning from Mother and taking her hand
walking along side with an open mind
following her lead with the eyes of a child
feeling you there with me with an approving smile.
(October 17, 2003)
Fare thee well M'Lord
M'Lord thou hast abandoned thine humble friend
Left to mine owns device to struggle on
Thy promises left lying slashed and torn
Bleeding on the floor without a care nor worry
What lesson dost thy teach ?
the lesson in progress still?
Or were thee merely a passer by?
M 'Lord me thinks mineself wouldst make thee proud,
For growth and learning twas made this time past,
Mine mind and heart reaches out for thee
Longing for thy counsel and guiding hand
Yet with the seeing tis known now
M 'Lord tis not to return
With love in hand I bid fare the well
Wilst look for thee next time around
Remembering the while to walk in the Souls Way.
(October 19, 2003)
Just because we write
Just because we write
does not mean a message sent
to land upon another
many times for those of us
who to words do put our feels
tis an extension of who we are
not a bullet nor an arrow
there are times the words mean more
than what would be apparent
other times the words themselves
have little bearing on the present
tis the way of many poets
those of us that put to word
the feelings of another
feel the pain or happiness
of our friends and loved ones
the sharing of our heartfelt art
can evoke the feelings felt
when the message seems to find
a tender spot within
please see the heart from which it came
and remember poetic license
(October 20, 2003)
Love flows
I smile at the thought of you
my mood lightens and my heart sings
I feel you here tenderly loving me
gently holding me in your embrace
love flows and knows no distance
I smile from deep within
knowing and feeling that which is you
I feel a calming of my soul
as it touches and mingles with yours
love flows making me yours
I smile with the sound of your voice
embracing the music it plays to me
I feel the depth of your love for me
with loving touch I return the feel
love flows bringing us close
I smile at the sight of you
no tears to be shed no hurts to be felt
I feel your love sweetly bathing me
in the look in your eyes and smile on your face
love flows as we together grow
(October 20, 2003)
Touching We
Your thoughts reach out to me
touching in the warmest way
slowly spreading enveloping me
I feel the love and desire
share the sense of togetherness
reaching back with my thoughts
knowing you feel the touch
gently kissing you with my love
embracing you and pulling you close
savoring the moment the sensation
time suspended, minds touching
hearts intertwining one in purpose
the pleasure of loving given freely
touching each other in the warmest way
finding comfort in togetherness
thoughts reach out touching we.
(October 21, 2003)
Most Sincere
How do I explain that which is felt
with such profoundly deep inexplicable emotion
the calm and surety you awaken in me
the tender love and caring felt
the raw powerful and passionate emotions
at once soft and demur yet base and animal
as if you tune this force from within
the music of our existence a symphony
flowing and changing yet a part of the whole
each part beautiful in and of it's own
simple yet complex in the scope of it all
alone a wonderful me but with you so much more
you evoke my best and make me shine
my love for you is most sincere.
(October 23, 2003)
Ritual Write
Dear mother and Father as thine humble servant I beseech thee
I seek thine aid in this day's noble work for together with thine help
tis mine intent to heal to cleanse the wounds of the past allowing new growth
I seek absolution not for mineself but for a loved one
easing the pain of one so dear as to touch mine own heart
I seek to dissolve the fear which resides deep within
cleansing and renewing soul, mind, and spirit
Mother and Father may we join in this work to heal this loved one
may they shed the trappings of the past
set aside the fear holding hostage to their soul
light the fire of truth to guide and comfort them
enable their heart to find the strength to continue on
may thine teachings nurture and keep faith alive
may they taste wisdom in thine cup which overfloweth with healing
let them find harmony and oneness and the power within
to this intent I put forth my resolve
providing strength, energy, and with faith in my heart
in this endeavor together to make it so Me, Thee, and We
SO MOTE IT BE!!!
(October 24, 2003)
I feel your pain
I feel your pain and break down sobbing
wondering why we feel like dying
hanging in the mists of thought
thoughts crippling the heart binds
singing songs melancholy tunes
echoing bouncing off the emptiness
downward spiraling goes feeling
numbness invades moments pause
shed tears and let go
aching and tugging at consciousness
I feel your pain
(October 26, 2003)
I 've missed you so much
I 've missed you so much
You don 't know the void and empty space
Sad and lonely and aching inside
I 've reached out to friends to help fill the hole
It 's helped a bit but not nearly enough
Still missing you and feeling alone
I 've missed you so much
Though you 're with me always I know
Holding and loving me from afar
The connection there keeping us close
Just not the same as hearing your voice
Or seeing the smile upon your face
I 've missed you so much
Called you just now and heard your voice
For just a moment I had you there
At the other end of the telephone line
It made my day and filled the hole
No longer void and feeling alone.
(October 27, 2003)
You are my dear and loyal friend
You are my dear and loyal friend
you're there to hold my hand and wipe my tears
been there to laugh and joke with me
seen the times both good and bad
we once were more and could still be
but life has brought us to impasse
we know and accept what and who we are
can sit there in silence and still we feel
there's a comfort in knowing we're there
holding each other steady above the surf
waves of life crashing all around
you with your love and me with mine
we know where we stand at all times
I'll not cross that threshold that brings
us closer than what prudence would deem
you'll willingly not push beyond that line
for love and respect is one of your gifts to me
I treasure the friendship which we know
so special in ways which others may not see
you and I side by side so much distance between
there just the same friends forever
to share little secrets and giggle odd thoughts
while we spend our lives with those that we love
there to smile and sob, to joke and to curse
You are my dear and loyal friend.
(October 27, 2003)
Going home
Oh god take me where fear does not reside
To the land where passions and memories live
Bring me out of this pain filled life
And bring me back into the light
The darkness surrounds me only one way out
much too confusing to think beyond
the fishing was nice here and the water calls
home I want to feel home it 's here
in the rocks and the dirt, beside the shore
comforting me calling me home
smell of smoke in the distance
the sound of silence deafeningly loud
drifting off warmth eluding fading away
know the joy I 'm going home
pain searing pain confusion sets in
what 's that I hear in the distant background
confusion and bewilderment pain
can smell the dirt and the rocks
fear a bit of fear returns within
light glass green colored water babbling on
the smell of dirt and the din of silence
floating off what 's that sound
sadness who 's that I feel there 's someone here
holding me close not letting me go
whispering softly it will be alright
warm embrace holding me close
pain and confusion what 's going on
still they 're there trying to help
holding me there though my spirit escapes
odd sensations feeling no pain
no emotion just wandering in confusion
who 's that taking my hand guiding me
taking me back where I can not stay
Still holding me close and trying in vain
I can see their faces in her grey eyes
Trying to buy time that was given away
Letting them know I choose to leave
Leaving the fear and the pain behind
No longer a burden growing each day
I 've returned to live in the light.
(October 28, 2003)
Kaleidoscope
Roses are red and violets are well violet
and when I get sappy you all are going to vomit
the sound of my smile makes a huge ass splash
nearly as good as the sound of my quiet anger
the pallor of flesh when seen from a distance
& can be noted and logged as just another quiet December
but when you come real close and notice
the faces are sitting in shock and some horror
the emotions they felt when I turned icy cold
'twas nothing compared to the warmth of my heart
the burning sensation that went flowing beyond
all but a memory come to haunt and make it's game
come play with me and dance this sick dance
take it all personally you know better then me
no word is uttered without harmful intent
smiles all fake and friendship a lie
looking through kaleidoscope eyes masks the world
changes the view distorting the image
how if you don't set down the glass
will the reality refocus and bring you full circle?
(October 31, 2003)
I called you friend
Once upon a time I called you friend
made you more than just a name
held you there though not deserved
gave you more than reasonable chance
more than once I accepted your apology
not this time for you see you've gone too far
one too many times you stepped beyond that line
done more than merely call me names
accused and refused to understand
never been there to lend a hand
once upon a time I called you friend
fought for you and for your rights
defended your honor and laid mine on the line
not all seen nor obvious but done just the same
for to me a friend is there through thick and thin
once upon a time I called you friend
never truly cut the bond I had made
when you apologized I forgave
but you see I am not as blind as you would say
I know now the person I once saw
is not willing to make the try
once upon a time I called you friend
but you've stepped way over the line
you shun growth and close your mind
judgmental and biased without all the facts
comfortable sitting there in the dark
your potential you will never realize
once upon a time I called you friend
I wonder now was it a waste of time
was there something better I could have done
I think not for if nothing else
you by default helped me
to see myself and to teach others
by the errors of your ways.
(November 4, 2003)
Dreaming on
My mind wanders and you are there
smiling back within my thoughts
by my side both day and night
finding comfort that this is so
I think again and feel you near
can feel the touch of loving thought
longing to bring the thoughts to life
surreal existence often mine
daydreams turning the hands of time
counting down the days that pass
till we realize that sweet embrace
waiting patiently and dreaming on
(November 5, 2003)
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