Beautiful People of Moonfest*:.
...It breaks my heart to say ...the time has come... moonfest will live forever in our hearts as a beautiful blissful memory....:*
...To give you the background, history, love and passion and emotion that went into this decision.......this was something I wrote in my journal the other morning ... at the wee hours after a LOT of thinking and no sleeping....:*
.:*:.....
hmmm
well it's early
I couldn't sleep
been tossing and turning for hours.
It’s full moon today
i only just realised that after pulling a few tarot cards out for council and realised the moon will be full tonight.
Oh I see!
The moon knows!
She planned this all along.
heheheeeee!
(I may possibly not make much sense as I have had very little sleep)
I have given great thought to and am very seriously thinking of discontinuing moonfest.
In fact I don't feel like I have the decision to make anymore... it's already been made
SO many things point to moving on from it now... and I feel that moonfest has it's own force and energy.... and perhaps life...and lifespan...
....I think moonfest is ready to remain in all our hearts as a beautiful memory.... rather than be tugged along by a worn out energy. If you try to hold on to things that are past their lifespan you start wearing it and yourself out.
We had a *reeeally* good run... 9 years is a bloody good effort!!! heheheh
I’d rather leave it on a high note!*:.
And please... before you drill me for making this decision and telling me all the reasons why I should not end moonfest, remember that this is a *really* sensitive area for me.... moonfest is my metaphorical baby... I LOVE it.... and I did *not* make this decision lightly... in fact the decision made itself... I was no part in it... the moon knows all... I am just her tool in which to gather people in her light.... hehehe! (Or something! lol)
EVEN if I did get insurance for a gathering that allows *anyone* to come to a public park and set things alight (which to be honest I really don't see an insurer taking this on board) ....AND had means of paying for it.... AND we could still run the gathering in the park.... I’m still unsure as to whether moonfest wants to continue.... there is *more* than just the insurance issue and the temporary park construction ...
To spite the drug and alcohol free rule, lots of people have been bringing bottles ..no ESKIES full of booze...(which was one of the condition of using the park... as well as the fact that moonfest was ALWAYS meant to be drug and alcohol free!!!) and I don't want to spend my whole moonfest nights being little booze police pixie... nor do I want a group of other people having to do it, or it to be done at all... it creates a yucky vibe... conflict... and an absents of that yummy free spirited casual energy that moonfest is.
Also the park is very much changing with the construction... from what I can see so far, it seems that there will be a path running through the middle of it. And the levels are possibly to be a more a gradual slope (all still piles of dirt at the moment but from the progression so far it's what it seems like to me)... meaning that the fire and sitting space is less defined.... this too means policing the sitting/fire space to keep it safe... something that was beginning to be an issue with safety as it was.
We have had complaints from the locals ... this isn't going to go away... if moonfest stays on the way it's going there will be more complaints and *more* regulations put in place ... we already had a 10pm sound curfew... which again... I hate policing... it breaks my heart to have to tell people to stop drumming...
there are just so many regulations and rules that we need to not break now, that moonfest is starting to loose it's yummy free spirited energy... I’d rather finish with a yummy taste in my mouth than a bitter one.
And of corse the fact that moonfest is just so big now!
It IS dangerous! ... If I was an insurance company *I* wouldn't insure it! LOL
the amount of times I have sat watching ... alert like a little mercat! .... just on edge waiting for something to happen! Grinding my teeth at irresponsible people and cringing at us all tempting fate! Arhg!
I don't want moonfest to end with blaring ambulance sirens ... I’d much prefer it to end on that wonderfully high note with a 9 year history of no bad incidences and so so many wonderful blissful memories*:.
When moonfest started I was a 17-year-old girl just wanting to get a few people together for a fire twirl and drum jam at the beach... the place I grew up in... I wanted to bring all that yummy energy to my doorstep and I saw great potential... and I did it! HA! I *did* bring it all to my front door and fully manifested my dreams and am so very proud of that.
Now I’m 26... I *still* live a stones throw away from the moonfest sight ... and have many wonderful blissful years under my belt. But sometimes it is just time to move on... leave the nest... (the nest seems awfully crowded these days anyways ;) ....heeee who was it that called it moofnest? *gigggggle*:.) And at the moment I do still feel tied to this place.... beautifully so... it is a wonderful place... but yes I *would* like to see more of the world and eventually live in the forest and go adventuring to some festivals on the other side of the world and stuff... and I do feel an obligation (as well as the desired and love for it) to BE HERE when moonfest is on... to make sure it's all ok ... and well... mother it a bit if you like... maybe I’m ready for moonfest to leave MY nest hahahahahaha!!!!
One day I want to live in the forest ... and we can have parties there!!! hahaha!
And there is nothing to stop a few people getting together on a full moon ... even at the same sight... so long as it is NOT "moonfest" and is nowhere near as big. ... (and so long as it doesn’t have my name attached to it ... I don't want to be liable for anything anymore ... it's too much responsibility for one little pixies shoulders) and if anyone *dose* decide to have anything along the same lines as moonfest bare in mind that there IS the insurance issue... as well everything I’ve mentioned here. And please definitely don't use the name "moonfest"... moonfest has so many connotations and meanings for everyone now...so not to get confused at to what's happening or if "moonfest" is coming back or relocating or anything like that... so if you start up your own gathering give it your own name.... as I’d also love for people to smile with blissful memories when they hear the word moonfest...:*
so this isn't the end all of full moon goodness... and there are so very many other lovely gatherings and parties to go to as well (feel free to continue using the moonfest community website to let people now about other gathering and get togethers ... or even as a social message board)
I can't keep fighting the forces of the universe to keep it running just because a few people (including myself) will be upset.
Awww... it absolutely breaks my heart... but I do feel that it is time to let go.
Before you comment please.... remember this is precious to me and so very close to my heart and i'd appreciate your support... I don't know *how* I am going to break the news to the moonfest community.... tough tough stuff... breaks my heart... if you are reading this you are one of the first to know.... along with me... I have a feeling the moon knew all along.
Tread lightly as you tread on my dreams....:*
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Well, I guess I *have* just broken the news to the moonfest community huh?
Breaks my heart....
Go well lovely folk
May we all walk our paths under the guiding light of the luminous moon and shimmering star-filled sky.....:::*
Love and Stardust*:.
Elke :*moonpixie*:.
