I'm a mom of 4 kids. I've never had trouble conceiving.
I decided to become a surrogate in the summer of 02. I went through all the testing and found intended parents to work with. I had 3 transfers for them. Transfer #2 took, but I miscarried twins at 6w5d. After the 3rd transfer they decided to seek adoption.
On to my single IM. We transferred 2x. #2 took and the baby never got a HB so we had to terminate the pregnancy.
On to couple number 3.... *sigh* They are friends of mine...Young so I thought I wouldn't have a problem carrying for them. We transferred in January and got a BFP 6 days after transfer. We were so excited to see the HB. We were scheduled for Valentines day. My BF and I went to Monterey for the weekend. When we got home we took a nap. I woke up to go to the bathroom and there was blood. Of course I freaked out.
By the AM I knew the babies were gone. (We felt from the beginning it was twins) We went to our u/s just on the outside chance they were okay. Unfortunately and very sadly they were gone. I cried so hard....
I ended up having to have a D&C because I wasn't bleeding enough. My friends came over the day after the D&C to tell me they were not going to continue....
I am heartbroken over the babies I've lost.
I know they weren't 'mine'
But it still hurts me.
I am getting a tattoo to commemorate the babies I've lost. I'm getting the pregnancy and infant loss ribbon with a butterfly on the top of the ribbon....
I hope it was okay that I posted this here. I am so sorry for those of you that have lost babies.
