Okay, so I love you, sue me!
Okay, so I love you, sue me!
Worse things could happen you know.
I didn't set out to fall in love
in fact I fought it for awhile
told myself it's way too soon
but you had my heart from moment one
took me some time to relax and be at ease
cause as you know I'd just begun to heal
needed time to sort things through
some time to let my heart over rule my head
so caution out the window went and reason pushed out the door
brushed myself off and here I am
loving you and wanting more.
(November 6, 2003)
the incredible snoark
snoark....zzzz
huh? oh...
Hi...nibble munch...hmmm...
(eyes blurry mind fuzzy)
ah...chat..and ....zzzzz
zzzz
huh? oh....
yeh...that's umm yeh what did you say?
oh....okay...
lol...
night
zzzzzzzz...snoark...nnnnmm...zzzzzzzzz
(November 13, 2003)
It 's his story
It's his story and he's sticking to it
the only way can be perceived
by a heart not willing to concede
whereas in truth did use and abuse
created with imagination great
self delusion with grand illusions
of what self still yearns to be
imagery waned as life came round
illusions shattered like gossamer strands
somewhen the concession will be made
love and life is no game
injury done with no thought of the pain
trust given and brutally betrayed
loved what was a now deceased illusion
pain and hurt deep as trust twas given
nearly destroyed in the suffering
(November 18, 2003)
What is it about you?
What is it about you?
I have loved you from the start
Seems you were an answer to my prayers
uttered at the depths of despair
asking for guidance and to ease the pain
a path shown and walked upon
and there around the bend
you appeared and eased my soul
were there to sooth and heal my heart
mended wounds you had not made
you've entered my dreams
that presence cherished
you've no idea how much
I want you near
no distance keeping you away
want you close enough to touch
to share a loving moment with
to look at me with your loving glance
to see the smile upon your face
and have it work its magic
grasping at all you want to share
What is it about you?
I have loved you from the start
(November 21, 2003)
Until it is spent
Feeling angry and hurt
Pain pouring out finally unleashed again
The song so innocently playing on the radio
Cutting and slashing at the bonds
Holding inside these feelings
Now uncontrollable tears streaming
Feeling foolish for having trusted so fully
For loving so freely and openly giving everything
That I should be caste aside so easily
My loving and care thought so little of
Feeling angry and hurt
Seeking answers where none exist
Tears washing away the poison
Friends lending a shoulder
Numbness returning a welcomed friend
Moving on trying to forget
Trying not to think for the time being
Thought I had let go and didn 't feel this way
The bonds holding in this pain can 't hold
Realizing there will be a next time
Hoping and praying will be easier
All will be felt again and again until it is spent
(November 29, 2003)
Earth
I hugged you close at Avebury
And felt your pull in Kessick
I know the feel of your forests deep
And revel in your canyons
The mountains call to me
As do many other places
You welcome me with open arms
I feel your strength within
I celebrate you as I walk this world of mine
I draw images in the sand
And plant and tend my gardens
I hear your often„silent call
You give me sustenance
And give me firm foundation
From you I gain so many riches
It 's hard to name them all
You fuel the healing touch I have
And give me wisdom from ages old
You bless us with your bounty
Ivy, grains, heavy low growing plants
The root is your favorite form
And the Oak is your tree
Of crystals and other treasures
A few do call to me
Granite, and copper, and that which feeds
Those and several more
Heady and telling the beat of the drum
They ground me well and provide me power
You 've taught me well and yet you see
You are so full of mystery
Just like a winter 's night
And within your spirit lives
Those whose realm is deep within
I know the gnomes and dwarves and trolls
And I know of Ariel
You are the salt of existence
The jewels of our mind
You are the structure we build upon
You are the beginning and the end
For without you we could not be
I feel you here a part of me
Earth
(November 30, 2003)
Did it make a sound?
The tree fell twood seem silently to the ground
the thumping crash twas not heard
but the echoes reverberate on
making their waves of change known
the energy spent the energy sent
resonating through the land
change still change regardless
if we're there to acknowledge
the vibration felt in eternity
the sound recorded in time
tis my vote the sound twas made
when tree did lay and kiss the ground.
(November 30, 2003)
Safe harbor
When my ship is sinking, taking on water and floundering
and all hope seems lost in the depths of the sea of my life
when my sails are tattered and torn to bits
and nothing seems to be quite right
you come along and change it all
a gentle loving embrace easing the pain and giving hope
mending the wear and tear with your tender touch
your love providing safe harbor within.
(December 5, 2003)
Escapades
The game played for oh so long
and on oh so many we've all lost count
to you an your escapades
The game once a deep dark secret
held so quietly as a treasure
much like Smeagol and his ring
this game does hurt and make cruel sport
using emotion most treacherously
Tell us then when is enough enough?
When do these escapades end?
This sick and twisted game you see
may yet claim the life of someone not so strong
I've seen it happen not so long ago
She was a tender and loving soul
Think to hide behind some walls
just remember you can run but cannot hide
we see you just the same
Dragons hear and dragons see
and dragons feel that's what we do
and most of us do not approve
bad enough to play these games
upon those whom can not feel the same
To use our powers in such ill conceived intent
tis like unto that which they call sin
and to make these escapades worse
they've moved to involving those of kin
craving the depth and clarity of emotion
feeding and turning it to something ugly
tis betrayal far beyond the line
It's felt and seen and generally known
the escapades are underway
don't expect to come off clean
play your games if you must
but realize that we see as do others it would seem
I here have an oath to swear
Be I bard, dragon, seer, or healer
and by all that makes me be me
I'll be there on the day
when Karma has her way.
(December 8, 2003)
Echoes,
I look all around me and the place echoes
memories filling the now empty space
many hours spent recently looking at the remnants
bringing an aching and longing and knowing no relief
this item makes me smile with a tender happiness
remembering you remembering the moment
yet another item brings with it a flood of tears
not knowing which is coming next
pushing hard at just moving on
working through the pain and the loneliness
no one here to quiet the sound of silence
knowing because of me you are gone
so far away and growing without me there
still a part of me yet now this great divide
a chasm formed between us now
different than would have otherwise been
loving you as much and more than ever
know that my love has never dwindled
and realize I cry out for you
hoping that one day you'll understand
knowing things will never be the same
having taken the step that was so required
I lay here crying taking the blame.
(December 8, 2003)
Man in the Moon
The journey of driving home after work
within the traffic running slow
and oldies playing on the radio
the night was clear and full of power
the moon full hanging in the north
ever present with humble grace
the man in the moon smiling for all to see
father's protection bathing me
comfort given in the soft moonlight
some see mother's influence there
but for me tis father's care
the man in the moon he's always there
he's been around from the dawn of time
guiding and watching from heaven's height
following me where ever I go
on this night feeling his gaze
giving me quiet regard.
(December 9, 2003)
Until it is spent
Feeling angry and hurt,
Pain pouring out finally unleashed again,
The song so innocently playing on the radio,
Cutting and slashing at the bonds,
Holding inside these feelings,
Now uncontrollable tears streaming,
Feeling foolish for having trusted so fully,
For loving so freely and openly giving everything,
That I should be caste aside so easily,
My loving and care thought so little of,
Feeling angry and hurt,
Seeking answers where none exist,
Tears washing away the poison,
Friends lending a shoulder,
Numbness returning a welcomed friend,
Moving on trying to forget,
Trying not to think for the time being,
Thought I had let go and didn’t feel this way,
The bonds holding in this pain can’t hold,
Realizing there will be a next time,
Hoping and praying will be easier,
All will be felt again and again until it is spent.
12-5-2003
Displaced
Displaced laying in a strange place
though welcoming not home
making space of my own
to bide the time
home is felt so far away
in the place love was found
and where my heart does lay
mellow aching does ensue
reminder of such happiness
there before my eyes
I see you looking back
reaching out I feel comfort
knowing we are
wanting more but waiting
displaced laying in a strange place
January 8, 2004
Know it for certain
It's worse when I'm tired
and more so when hungry
the draining exhaustion of missing you
this feeling invades me
of being alone without you nearby
the aching increases wanting to cry
I let my mind wander and float away
seeking and searching, reaching out through the day
finding that feeling the one meaning you're there
holding me close showing you care
remembers the feelings not so long ago
of your flesh next to mine in tender embrace
the touch of your breath and the depth of your eyes
the comfort felt just being abides
loneliness subsides with the sharing we do
trading thoughts between me and you
know it for certain I do love you.
January 9, 2004
How do I......?
How do I show you how much I love you and what you mean to me?
How do I show you that every moment of the day you help me carry on?
How do I show you that you are always in my dreams?
How do I show you the difference that you've made?
How do I show you that you make me a better me?
How do I show you the person that I see deep inside of thee?
How do I show you how remarkable you are to me?
How do I show you that I love you just the way you are?
How do I show you that I'm always by your side?
How do I show you I want no other you are the one for me?
How do I...........?
How do I...........?
January 12, 2004
You're still my friend
You're still my friend even though we disagree
and see things from a different light
though I don't understand
how we came to where we stand
and others can't see why I stay around
You're still my friend though hurt I've been
trust will take some time to grow
as slowly the pain and wounds do heal
the friendship worth the effort made
You're still my friend and will always be
as long as you will be a friend in deed
and some day who knows
what future we shall see unfold
You're still my friend I'll always care
I'll be there through the thick and thin
I'm not here to judge and blame
nor to bear you down and make you change
I'm simply the friend I vowed to be
my promise I keep so faithfully.
January 20, 2004
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