| Laura's Writes Page 22 Sweet & Beautiful Eyes reflecting deep pools of self sparkling and alive excitement flowing forth smile tempting smile genuinely happy a vision hard to grasp as real beauty and grace sweet so sweet to face sweet so sweet the feel making for a happy thought a heady and lustful want altering reality changing perception falling deep within those eyes easily melting into this essence restraint hard to keep desire lit from within illuminating the way voices speak softly time will tell time will tell crazy feelings flitting near and by nearly audible in their sound dare not to ask why don't look too close nor too far away perhaps the answer finally come this way response given to a silent prayer maybe just a distraction from the past what was let go of found renewed in form so sweet and beautiful perhaps dream formed illusion compelling and tempting pinning no hope to the vision simply feeling exploring those eyes so deep and alluring the smile so easy and transforming desire waking full of being on my mind you. 4-26-05 Visions Visions of you fill my mind your sweet and genuine smile the sparkling of your eyes bringing me to speechlessness visions of you in my sleep drawing me through astral planes calling soulfully deep within heard with ears not of body made visions of you fill my thoughts touching all somehow you are the sun dissolving the shadows bit by bit 4-27-05 What a surprise What a surprise you see how it greeted me simple words in pixel form inside an email not of the norm I read the message it touched me deep sent a reply taking that leap here I sit not so much longer my love for you growing stronger I wasn't looking but here you are changing my life from afar melting my heart from the very start. 5-1-05 A lil reminder We didn't run away, We're still right here where we were, twas you that left, in some kind of a huff, if you really don't understand, perhaps you should look within, you sent everyone a packing, as you couldn't win your way, and we accomdated, by deciding not to play, so just a lil reminder, that if for some reason you should miss us, we're right here where we've been, we haven't gone astray. 5-5-05 Hang on tight Hang on tight to this roller coaster ride, you're in for some kind of ride with me, join me in my insanity, look at what love has done to me, brace yourself for this wave that is a coming, the emotional tides have lost all sensability, there's not turning back, so hang on tight to this roller coaster ride, scream with delight as it whips us round and down, up and over for another thrilling turn join me in my insanity, this manic pace and smiling face forgetting the past, rushing down and around and up and over into a carnival of love, wooooooeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaa, over and over, hang on tight to this roller coaster ride. 5-7-05 Reflections In my mind and dreams , is where your love resides, taking prisoner to my every desire, taking me away to a place I've never known, deep inside your soul, where it echoes of home, loving you is where I'm at , so peaceful the feeling exhilarating in the expansiveness so frightening in the simplicity desire wets my lips and takes my breath the sweetness of your love knowing beyond doubt in your mind and dreams reflections 5/9/2005 I remember I remember it from both sides now from then and when I used to be once a man and still somehow I was a woman for another time the incense incensitizing me and loves illusions still somehow find me laying in the grass behind the trees and near the creek with sunlight pouring between the leaves no worries here and where we were it's lifes illusions coming forth playing games within my mind longing to take you there until the moonlight touches us and the stars call down in sweet song I remember lives from both sides now knowing you'll be with me till this one's done and yet we'll see another one lifes illusions playing on within my mind and in my soul come with me and we'll recede, to see these illusions made real, you touching me and I you 5/9/2005 The sands of time The sands of time wash back and forth across the beach where ocean tides rip and crash so violently the foam frothing with each new wave beating down forward bent to it's earthy grave amidst the surf so full of life standing there braving all stalwart seems the edifice of stone outcroppings beacons strewn along the ocean's edge birds crying overhead sending their message to the skies here at the edge of land and sea lay chaos and order in unity forever changing forever the same married in this dance for all eternity.
6/17/2005 I could cry I could cry my eyes out until I di ied I could cry I I I I I In fact I did I di i i i i id I cried and cried the tears pouring from my eye eyes bleeding me dry I I I I I begged and I pleaded asked for what I nee eeded but my tears they fell wasted streaming down soaking the ground they fell upon deaf ears I could cry my eyes out until I di ied I could cry I I I I I In fact I did I di i i i i id I cried and criedwhat ever happened I don't know what ever happened to the one that used to love me the one that was my frie hend soul mates to the eh end turned out it didn't matter how I felt didn't matter that it was killing meeee no matter how I tried you know I could cry until I died I could cry I could cry I I I I I in fact I did I di i i ii id I cry ied screamed and I hollared Hollared as I die ied you just stood there and watched or were you even ther ere I could not tell you now if you even noticed how I cried out for help pleaing for my life to save the love we had I could cry my eyes out until I di ied I could cry I I I I I In fact I did I di i i i i id I cried and cried the tears pouring from my eye eyes bleeding me dry I I I ISurprising now how after all the years I feel it still the pain and the anguish the futility with which I struggled grasping and a gasping holding on telling myself telling myself I needed to try in real-ity just holding on to the lie until I fin-a-ly re-alized re-al-ized I needed to save you save you to save me and I cried and continued to die I I I I knowing what sacrafice I was making to save you to save me and here we are how much has changed I'm not sure I just know oh oh that when I gave up called it quits things changed and keep a changin making things a better for you and for me e e e e e e now and then I still cry I remembering everything what we had and what we lost hurt and pain following me around I could cry my eyes out until I di ied I could cry I I I I I In fact I did I di i i i i id I cried and cried the tears pouring from my eye eyes bleeding me dry I I I I but here I am resurrected up out of the ashes the aches and pains fading away fading away ay ay ay ay ay I don't think I I could cry high never again like I cried for you oo never again to endure what I did for you oo you are part of me even still ill inseparable in way that no one understands but never again to be together done and over no more never i cried until I died 5/21/2005 |