Sounds
sounds echoing in the twilight hours of dawn landing softly upon my ear
hushed whispers of the night's enchantments
slowly slipping further away with the paling eastern sky
retreating to the recesses of the nethermind
reaching out feeling holding on for a moment more
the bridge between subtly fading passing from the minds eye
sounds echoing in the twilight hours of dawn landing softly upon my ear
brushing lightly upon my soul
the essence lingering a memory formed and laying in wait
for the day whence tasted again it brings to life enchantments renewed
consiousness enlightened marveling at each with new delight
hushed whispers gaining strength now within listenings reach
sounds echoing in the twilight hours of dawn landing softly upon my ear
hushed whispers of the night's enchantments
slowly slipping further away with the paling eastern sky
retreating to the recesses of the nethermind
reaching out feeling holding on for a moment more
the bridge between subtly fading passing from the minds eye
sounds echoing in the twilight hours of dawn landing softly upon my ear
the cycle renewed past and repast visited and revisited
the sleeper awakening stronger with each telling
enchantments growing within the soul finding nourishment finding growth
growing closer to the otherworld a whisper filtering through
an echo of thought an echo of feel an echo of taste an echo of smell
sounds echoing in the twilight hours of dawn landing softly upon my ear
hushed whispers of the night's enchantments
slowly slipping further away with the paling eastern sky
retreating to the recesses of the nethermind
reaching out feeling holding on for a moment more
the bridge between subtly fading passing from the minds eye
(October 17,2002)
Enlightenment
Expressions fail me as words will not suffice for you are, yes you are!
I see the world through a new light, I can feel the layers, I know they're there.
Always I have known and seen but not as clearly and as beautiful it would seem.
This feeling is a wonder and delight, I'm gaining knowledge with each stride.
I know I am where I should be and doing the things that I should do.
I thirst for the knowledge,
I need to know.
(November 11, 2002)
Feel the love
Feel the love
feel the pull of the moon
it's in my eyes
it's in my mood
I see the world in dark twilight
I see you now standing in the light
gone before me and standing still
opening awareness and seeing far
feeling the love that brought me here
holding it precious and never forgotten
(November 21, 2002)
Divinity's Shores
twilight harkens mine soul to seek
the energies given by nature's whim
a sense of fulfillment cometh my way
as I watch the end of day
slowly the light fades from the sky
but enters my soul making me cry
tear of happiness staining my cheek
thinking of friends as I weep
tender touches thoughts are those
bringing me closer to divinity's shores
(November 29, 2002)
Healing
I thought it was past, this feeling of hurt
gone beyond the realms of my heart
assigned off to memories shore
shipped safely there to hurt me no more
I was wrong the feeling is here
nearly as fresh as the day it was born
feeling the ache, feeling bleeding and torn
All it took was that look in your eye
our energy mixing and washing over me
to make me feel the pain again
yes I cried a tear or two
for the memory of the friendship we shared
but I'm not in a panic and not in despair
alas I must be healing for sure
the pain is gone quicker than before
Friends I have found whom mean much more
caring for me in ways you would not believe
accepting and cherishing that which is me.
(December 2, 2002)
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
My love given freely
To you for the taking
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
I loved you as should be
I loved you for being you
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
The love we shared
'twas meant to be
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
Else how was it then
We fit as we did
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
What did you see
When you looked at me
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
We shared a love that was so sweet
We felt it melt us into we
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
What did you see inside yourself
That made you run and hide
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
Forsaking yourself
And that which you feel
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
No illusion was there then
I saw the decision made
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
I knew when you felt the fear
Of loving and needing me near
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
My eyes your gaze would not meet
Apologizing all the while
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
You fled for your life
With no regard for me
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
Back to your life
Which is made of lies
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
For in the end
You dared not care
Don't hate me for loving you
Don't hate me for seeing the truth
I pray for the day that I forget
The love that I feel for you
(December 2002)
Under the spell of his gaze
Under the spell of his gaze
I sit in awe waiting
for the sound of his voice to engage
power felt from deep within
working his magic over me
my heart is pounding and emotions sounding
against my efforts to control
the power and magic of his presence
draws from me a passion growing over distant seas
fueling desires his magic felt
teacher and master
willingly let him transform me
excitement sits with a patient face
thankful for his humble grace
knowing where the boundaries lie
trust unspoken promise given
venturing forth to newer fields
Under the spell of his gaze
I sit in awe waiting
for the sound of his voice to engage
power felt from deep within
(December 2002)
Beyond that Wall
I look inside myself so deep
knowing that is where I keep,
feelings and thoughts I've suppressed
hiding them where hiding's best
Yet I look once again,
seeking not but I did find,
you are there behind that line,
never meant to share those feels,
the ones that make me rock and reel,
the me that was only known to me,
you know me now as no others see,
earth shaking and heart sore,
vulnerable you've seen me to the core,
grateful I have found such a friend
friends of truth and till the end,
you see me as no others do,
and me never wanting to hide from you
it seems you belong beyond that wall.
(December 2002)
Heart sings happiness reigns
Heart sings happiness reigns
touching you curing pain
sharing done cross distant shores
folding space bringing us close
warmth felt from deep within
feeling spreading my heart sings
see your face and beautiful eyes
touch your soul share with mine
mingle me tingle me make me smile
Heart sings happiness reigns
touching me curing pain
sharing done cross distant shores
folding space bringing us close
knowing you're there at minds touch
never alone and meaning so much
feel you there a part of me
comfort found knowing we
mingle me tingle me make me smile
Heart sings happiness reigns
(December 24, 2002)
Love's not gone just gone away
The pain wells up flooding my chest pushing up to form tears,
thoughts of you that used to bring joy make only sorrow,
time will heal the wound, the memory will settle
to the deep abyss past sorrow's door,
but never will I be the same, you've changed me forever
shown me how little I meant, what small regard was held for the loving I spent.
At last I shed a tear for you, letting it wash away my pain.
Tears cleanse the heart and soul in natures gentle way
Friends reach out with caring touch keeping me safe till a happier day
(December 24, 2002)
Lovers on occasion
That I could lay my hands upon your flesh
my life would yet then be complete
that I could see the look within your eyes when you think of me
my life would yet then be forever changed
that I could smell you in the night upon my pillow as I sleep,
it would be a comforting thing keeping me within your reach
thoughts of you hold me captive of the love we know
friends forever and lovers on occasion....
I feel it now and I'll keep it within
a treasure to be held so close and never lost.
(January 2003)
Dead on arrival
I thought I'd make sweet love to you
I plied you with my tender kiss
I touched you with a caring hand
but all was for naught
your love I found
was dead on arrival
I felt the passion rise in me
I tried to love you as should be
I nipped and licked and nibbled too
but all was for naught
your love I found
was dead on arrival
I carried on sure I'd win
and make your passion flare
alas you see I was mistaken
nothing there for loving me
your love I found
was dead on arrival
My heart was crushed
the tears did form
I sobbed until I could no more
you knew not why the tears I cried
for your love I found
was dead on arrival
I picked myself up
and tucked inside
the feelings that I felt
to hide away the shame and guilt
for your love I found
was dead on arrival
(January 2003)
Missing...Presumed dead – part A
Missing...presumed dead
I am here but am not seen
Often over looked
Though deeply loved
just a convenience it seems
missing...presumed dead
My opinions and insights
used to be cherished
but now only wanted
when asked and not just given
or so it would seem
missing...presumed dead
I stepped out of the mold
that was formed in the mind
my growth in the 'way'
seemed to get in the way
so I'm missing...presumed dead
I worked so hard for so long
for ages alone to while the time
I found my own interests
and now it's my sin they miss me
missing...presumed dead
(January 2003)
Missing...Presumed dead – part B
I lay there under that touch
the one that's supposed to feel good
it's been so long that the feelings been gone
I'm afraid that it's missing...presumed dead
I remember how it once was
to be touched with passions touch
to be petted and probed in order to please
but's it seems it's missing...presumed dead
I know that we used to kiss
that's one thing for sure I miss
I long for it now but somehow
I'm afraid that it's missing...presumed dead
Making love once was just that
it wasn't a selfish act
I lay there to often needing more
but completion is missing...presumed dead
Don't let me fool myself for moment
at times I feel it with all of my heart
but yet at other and more often at times
I just wish I would not have to proceed
desire at times is missing...presumed dead
(January 2003)
fog of emotion
drifting through a fog of emotions
the sea of possibility washing gently upon the sands of my mind I float off
realization enters slowly
like a dark image gaining perspective
taking form
these feelings are shared and emanate from beyond my being
I feel and become in sacred silence of the others
helping carry the burdens
too heavy to bear
drifting through a fog of emotions
the sea of possibility washing gently upon the sands of my mind
I float off
perspective changes
blending becoming new
sensations not of my making
realization strikes a chord
you are here with me
comfort being ours to share
never alone always there
drifting through a fog of emotions
the sea of possibility washing gently upon the sands of my mind
I float off
certain you sense the same
becoming closer in spirit with the touch
seeing and being
giving and receiving
caring and loving
just being and knowing we have
a gift we're willing to share
(January 10, 2003)
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